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Thursday, October 13, 2011


There's a big girl in my house, sound asleep, curled up with her favorite stuffed animal, blankets tucked in tightly around her body in what she calls her bedtime "cocoon."

There's a little boy in my house, sound asleep, curled up with his favorite stuffed animal, blankets thrown on the floor because he likes his legs "chilly" when he sleeps.

There's a baby girl growing in my belly, who is kicking and moving more and more each day, who will complete our family in more ways than we can possibly imagine in just a few short months.

And me? I'm here. Relishing in the silence. Wanting to scoop each of them into my arms and whisper how wonderful and amazing they are. How very blessed I am to be their mama.

I sit here just thinking. The good and the bad. The amazing miracles in our lives. The struggles, daily, to make it all work.

Even though there are dishes that need to be done, boxes that still need to be unpacked, and a myriad of other tasks that need to be done, I still feel at ease.

What a welcome change!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Joyful Beginnings

God works in mysterious ways.

We are so joyful in His plan for us in the upcoming year.

How did I get so lucky?

From smiling faces to french braiding hair. From fireworks to family picnics and meeting wonderful family members for the first time. From gleeful exclamations of our happy news to questions and concerns from those who love us most. From planning and decision making to resting in the knowledge that life is a gift.

Life IS a gift. I will not take that for granted.
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Monday, April 4, 2011


Sometimes I feel like I'm outside my body looking in at my life.

There are so many things I want to do, so many places I want to be, so much I want to happen, but I often feel like I'm just a bystander. I have no control over what is happening.

I want and want and want, and yet I can't make anything happen.

The actions needed sometimes don't happen.


Why can't I push myself for the things I so desperately want?

The idea of work is sometimes exhausting. It will take some serious hard work to achieve some of these things.

But the payout is so amazing. Why isn't that enough motivation?

I'm always aching for more.

I'm content in the here and now, but my heart (and my arms) are always aching.

I suppose that means I'm not really content.

But I hate the idea of NOT being content with the wonderful things I do have.

These thoughts in my head, and these feelings in my heart, tangle with the truths of my reality.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Hello, it is wayyy past my bedtime!

The burst of spring that embraced our community the last few days was just the spark I needed to get motivated.

I cleaned most of my house.

Laundry, clean! SCORE!

Dishes, too!

Homework is caught up.

Babies have been played with, fed, bathed, and are now content and fast asleep.

I sat down and started working on the business plan that I have been putting off for...two years?

Maybe it's been three.

Ideas, ideas, ideas, I'm exploding! Always, constantly, consistently. But that's all I do.

I just sit around and explode.

Tonight I exploded onto a piece of paper. That's a step in the right direction!

It's supposed to snow again this weekend, and I'm ready for that.

I made it through my "dark months," which are probably the "dark months" or weeks or whatever for most of the country that gets trapped inside due to below freezing temps and piles of snow. I made it through.

Baby Boy's birthday in just a few short weeks. Then softball season, and that means spring will officially be here.

I. Am. Ready.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Who's the slacker?

It ain't me, people.

Okay, it totally is.

I haven't blogged in a couple weeks.

There is a pile of dishes near the sink that I warn my son to stay away from because they are much taller than him and I'm afraid he'll get lost.

Don't go in the basement.

And the homework. OH. THE. HOMEWORK.

Who's idea was it to go back to college, anyhow?

It couldn't have been me. That would have been crazy.


I'm off to slackity slack some more. It's the cool thing to do.

Monday, January 24, 2011

I can.

Today I take a big step into a new venture.

I've created the groundwork for my virtual assistance company.

I've purchased a domain for the non-profit I plan to create to help those less fortunate.

I've recognized the need for further prayer on what will happen with our growing family, or perhaps non-growing family.

I have had a hard time focusing this last week, but today I feel better and more on top of things.

I have more work to do. I am an ever-changing work-in-progress. But I continue, each day, to keep moving forward.

Recognizing the need for more prayer in my life.

Recognizing the need for more effort in the little things that are the most important to my family.

Recognizing the love I have from my husband, children, family, and friends.

Recognizing that I can do this.