Alright, it's getting a little clearer!

It's been a rough couple weeks.

The husband was in a car accident two weeks a go. Thankfully, he is okay. The car, on the other hand...not so much.

The positive... thanks to my brief stint at our car insurance company back in TX, I knew how affordable adding roadside assistance to our policy is, and I decided this time around to add it for both vehicles. I did that just a few months a go. So, with the accident, the husband was able to call the roadside assistance company and the car was towed back to our house, free of charge.

Thank God! When he told me he had the car towed, my heart sank, wondering how in the world we could afford that. Then I remembered. I'm so grateful!

The negative... we are down to one car. The more expensive car to keep full of gas, of course.

Two days a go I get a call from the husband on his way home from work telling me the only working vehicle had a flat tire and he wasn't able to open up whatever it was that held the spare in place.

The positive... roadside assistance to the rescue, again! We have unlimited usage, which is wonderful. They came and helped him get it out, and he was safely on his way home.

The negative... the only working vehicle now has a spare on it and we can't drive it very far. I'm not sure when we'll be able to get a new tire.

But you know what? Beyond these very rough couple weeks, I've had some clarity. I know that we'll be okay.

The other day something happened to the husband at work, something that shook him a bit. The next day he didn't have to visit this particular place, which has never happened before - it's a place he almost ALWAYS goes to.

I was amazed - I told him, "God was looking out for you!"

His response, "That was my exact thought, word for word."

Okay. I got it. We're on the same page.

God is looking out for us.

I know my blog has taken a turn lately, and I've been talking about my faith a lot more. It's a part of my life that I've seldom explored. I certainly have always believed in God, gone to church regularly (for the most part), prayed daily. I've never doubted. I've just never explored any type of relationship with God, or thought about my life in connection with my faith. It's always just kind of been there, on the surface. It's hard to explain, but I've been feeling like I have needed something to happen in my life. Something to help me ease myself from the pain and the stress. Some kind of reassurance. Some kind of purpose. Some kind of meaning.

It's a lot. It's heavy. It's not easy. But it is easy at the same time.

I've been down, worrying, stressing, trying to figure out what to do.

For right now? I'm still going to work hard at putting my family back together. I'm still going to work hard at balancing our budget. I'm still going to work hard to find other means of income. I'm still going to work hard to keep up the house. I'm still going to work hard to make sure my kids are happy, despite the vibe that's been in our house lately.

But I'm also going to give it up to God. I know He is there.

I feel lighter already.